Anything and Everything

You can have anything in life if you will sacrifice everything else for it. ~James Matthew Barrie

I don't remember where I first saw this. I remember thinking "Oh, how true!" And lately, this saying keeps ringing in my head. I searched online and found the quote.

I am missing Mak and the whole family back home. I feel left out, again, now that the family is busy with the double wedding soon. I have been missing a lot of things. My brain understands why I am away and not able to be there for Mak and everybody else. But my heart is dying. It really sucks.

An old friend who used to merantau jauh for an extended time warned me of this. I remember what was told, and how real indeed it is now..

For what? For things I really wanted. Things that I had been yearning for years. For those I love deeply with all my heart.

At what price? Homesickness and longing for what I used to have. Those I love deeply with all my heart, too.

I wanted to go where life takes me, and I am here.